Mirrors, Tears and Movin' On!

I am alive!

Just got myself in a bit of a rut again...but seem to be pulling out of it. I started to blog in the midst of it last week but didn't have time to finish...here's how it went;

I planned on posting progress pics this past weekend at which time I was 4 weeks out. I was starting to feel pretty good... I picked up my black suit on Friday and didn't think it looked too bad :)

I went to leg camp on Saturday morning and many of the other girls commented on how my legs had come down and that they could see I was leaning out! All was going well until it came time for posing. I started with my shorts over my suit but when Mindi said I either needed to pull them up or take them off I thought..."Ah heck, I've only got 4 weeks left, lets take them off and see the real picture"...that was my BIGGEST mistake! Seeing my butt and back of my legs in those mirrors and that lighting really did me in. It sure doesn't look like that in my mirrors at home..wtf?!?

That was beginning of the road to rutville :S

After camp, posing and 2 hours of cardio I was wiped...physically and mentally. I got home around 3 and immediately put on my pj's and hit the couch (the whole time wondering why the hell I am doing this!)

Sunday was my first 'non rest day' as 2 hours of cardio need to be done now. I know longer have that little break in the week to look forard to...the work just goes on and on...I had a tough time with that as I was already struggling.

Monday I found out that the hotwire had changed thier minds and were no longer going to let me refund & rebook for the hotel that I booked for the wrong weekend...there goes $200 down the drain!

By Tuesday I didn't even want to get out of bed...just the thought of another 200 lunges, 2 hours cardio and the dreaded leg workout was too much to even think about :S I talked myself into at least getting outside and going for a good ol' power walk in the sunshine...that was interesting. The motivational music I had downloaded had me in tears on my walk...wtf?!? I was a mess!

I have herad of other girls going through these emotions but this was my first experience with it...not fun!

The good news is that the susnshine brought me outside for many more power walks, I am starting to see some changes, and I seem to be back on track :)

 Here are a few pics I took while walking.

 Don't worry Mindi...I stopped my watch while I took these ;)

The beautiful Spencer Smith park during the day.

And a night shot.

During last nights walk (above) I even threw in some run/sprint intervals and quite enjoyed it!

 Hopefully that will shake things up a bit... time is running out!

I am off for some cardio now...shocking I know :)

 Then I am picking up my pink suit. I will try to post pics!